I must still be trying to run away
On Wednesday, I decided to solve my problem immediately thus a resolution was made. But sadly enough, i came to realise that it only solved my problem for that period of time. Now it has made me either very detached or very implusive. For example, I felt so terrible when Karen did a few things to me and i had totally no feeling of it at all (please don't start thinking in another sense). Only before she came back from the bathroom did i realise what had happened or rather i had this feeling on my cheek that told me i had been kissed. I turned around and asked her did she kiss me and the answer was yes. I felt so upset almost immediately. How could i not have sensed it? I wasn't that engrossed in replying my friend's mail and that short period of time seemed to have disappeared all together. It seem as though it didn't even existed. I want to remember the things that you do and all the feelings i have. Oh gawd..please let me feel it once more..please??
Ikea and my Granddad
Went to Ikea with my mum this late morning and my granddad drove us there. Taking his rides always makes me feel like it's gonna be my last ride. He stops in the middle of the road, speeds up then cuts into other people's lanes even when we told him that he has to keep to either one side of the road very very much earlier. Insists that he is right about where he's supposed to drive when he's not. Drives as though he's driving a lorry (well he used to). Can't wait patiently for a seat at the Ikea restuarant. Shoved his food down his throat when he doesn't even do that at all..until today. Told me and my cousins to finish up the remaining 1 1/2 pieces of chicken (1 drumlet and a very pathetic piece of breastmeat in exact) when we were so full. He then said he will pack up the remaining chicken if we don't eat it, so we had no choice but to gobble it down since it would be so embarrassing to pack the 2 pathetic pieces of chicken. Conclusion?? I dislike going out with my granddad. Makes me so freaking stressed up and unhappy.
Mum
She's gonna open a dessert stall at a factory canteen. All her tuition will be pushed to late afternoon and she's already starting to pack all the books. She don't wish to continue giving tuition. Kids nowadays are so terrible. TV is bad influence for kids. I'm glad coz i always hated all the students. They make my home look and feel like a hostel. Not that i'm saying a hostel is bad..but it's my home afterall right?? somewhere where i can be myself but with them around..i need to continue with my pretentious courtesy, smiles and all. Soon after i graduate, she'll be a full time hawker..yeah..no more students..so i've to study smart and pass all my papers..4 more mths..I CAN DO IT!!! haahaahaa... =)
-iWrote 7/25/2004 05:19:00 PM
